From trauma to self-mastery
How I turned pain into power.
I’m a Transformational Coach specializing in identity shift and subconscious work. I help people understand and reprogram the internal patterns that hold them back, so they can stop self-sabotage and live in alignment with who they truly are.
Over the past five years, I’ve supported clients through deep inner work that blends mindset, subconscious awareness, intuitive clarity, and grounded energetics. My approach is practical, direct and designed for those who want real transformation without the fluff. I do this work because I’ve walked the path myself. My own journey forced me to confront the patterns, beliefs, and internal conflicts that were keeping me small. The tools I teach now are the same tools that helped me shift my identity, rebuild inner safety, and step into my own power.
And I’m constantly evolving because I believe we can only guide others as far as we’re willing to go ourselves.
But, I didn’t just end up here.
This work was born from a long and difficult journey, one I had to walk myself..
It all started in my childhood.
Most of my early memories are marked by a sense of fear and instability. My parents, lost in their own pain, didn’t have the tools to face their emotions or handle conflict. Yelling, fighting, and financial stress were part of daily life.
I learned early on that what happens behind closed doors stays there. We protect the family at all costs. So no matter what was happening, I smiled. I even convinced myself we had a “happy” home because compared to other families around me, where there was alcoholism, abuse, aggression and constant fights, ours seemed better.
Even though I never felt safe at home, it was all I knew. It was my family, my normal. I became a master at hiding pain and building walls of control around my heart. On the outside, I was cheerful, always smiling. On the inside, I felt numb, disconnected and empty.
This experience made me believe that happiness was for others, not for me. That life was something to survive, not to enjoy. And chaos was a place where I was home.
Avoiding myself
It didn’t stop there. During my teenage years, I endured countless traumatic experiences. Sexual assault, stalking, various violations and a constant sense of insecurity at home. These left me battling daily anxiety and PTSD. At 19, I finally decided the only way to escape the chaos was to move out and live on my own. Only to realize that the chaos I once lived in had already become part of my identity.
You see, no matter how far I ran (and believe me, I tried), I kept stumbling into the same patterns. I hated the chaos, truly but somehow… it was the only place that felt familiar. It felt like home. Back then, I didn’t understand why. I lacked the tools to process the heavy emotions I carried. So I kept spiraling into the same cycles of fear, self-doubt, and deep powerlessness.
The only way I knew how to cope… was to run. To numb the pain. To drown it out with distraction. I threw myself into partying, working two jobs, drinking almost daily, using drugs, and losing myself in relationships that left me emptier than before. But that path,- instead of saving me-, only pulled me further away from who I truly was.
I didn’t know what a good life looked like but I knew this wasn’t it.
Eventually, I tried to pick up the pieces and build what looked like a “normal” life.
During my early twenties
I got married at 26. From the outside, everything looked perfect. I was surrounded by friends and family, had financial stability, and a carefully planned future. I should have been happy and for a long time, I convinced myself that I was.
But inside, I was barely holding it together. Years of unresolved trauma had left deep, invisible scars. I was stuck in survival mode. Even something as simple as stepping outside alone felt terrifying. I tried to control everything. Stress became my baseline. And in order to feel even a hint of safety, I avoided anything that might trigger fear(even walking alone in broad daylight).
At some point, I just accepted it. This was life now: full control, no risks. Over the years, I tried everything, therapy, medication, mindset hacks, but nothing brought lasting relief. They helped for a while, but most only treated the symptoms, never the root. Eventually, I gave up. I started to believe this was just who I was. That I was broken. That life was dangerous. And that unless I controlled every detail, my routines, my relationships, my image, everything would fall apart… and I’d be thrown back into that unbearable feeling of powerlessness. So I clung even tighter to structure, to certainty, to the illusion of control.. Mistaking control for safety.
The Breaking Point
Until one night, everything came crashing down.
I lay in bed for hours, struggling to breathe. It became so terrifying that I had to wake my partner. He was shocked, and we rushed straight to the ER, convinced I was having a heart attack.
After numerous tests and hours of waiting, the doctor finally returned only to say, once again, “It’s a panic attack.” And handed me some pills to calm it down.
Part of me secretly wished it was a heart attack because then it wouldn’t feel like my fault. But realizing that my own mind was making me sick filled me with shame. If I couldn’t even control my own mind, what control did I really have?
The trauma of feeling powerless resurfaced, and my will to live started to fade. Something had to change and fast.
The spark that shifted everything
That’s when, by pure accident, I stumbled upon the Manifestation Babe podcast. I had never even heard of manifestation before, but something she said struck a nerve:
"You’re not broken. Your trauma came to teach you something not to break you."
That sentence lit a fire in me. It sounded so simple. Too simple. But for the first time in my life, I felt a spark of hope. Could it really be true? Could I really change? Could I truly find strength again?
I didn’t fully believe I could heal but if just one sentence could already spark something in me, I was willing to explore what else might be possible.
"People give their lives for their beliefs, so learn how to believe in yourself, and you can achieve anything."
The Power of Self-Discovery
After that podcast, I devoured books, enrolled in courses, and absorbed everything I could about how the mind works. I experimented with meditation, exercises, morning routines, ice baths... Some helped, most didn’t. I failed over and over again, but quitting was never an option. There was no going back. I had to keep moving forward. I was already lost and exhausted, so I figured I might as well be lost while trying, hoping I’d eventually find a way out.
I didn’t realize it then, but this was the beginning of a years-long obsession: "understanding the mind."
Until, finally, something shifted. Not when I did more but when I started to do less. For so long, I tried to control my anxiety by adding more: more activities, more routines, more pressure. But it only left me overwhelmed.
Then I realized: the real work was in stripping away everything that wasn’t truly me. And the crazy part? It was so simple yet incredibly difficult for my mind to accept.
So I went deeper.
I studied the subconscious, trauma, and human behavior.
I faced every fear, every suppressed emotion, every painful memory.
And slowly… everything began to change.
I began to change.
The Rebirth: Shedding layers, finding power
For years, I had let my trauma define me. I had built an entire life around a version of myself that wasn’t even real.
As I grew and released old versions of myself, my entire life began to shift with me. I let go of my marriage, my friendships, my old identity. I walked away from everything that wasn’t aligned with my true self.
And then, one day, I realized something: It had been over a year since my last anxiety attack.
The fear that once ruled my life was gone.
I realized that I’d been disconnected from myself for so long, not broken, just unaware of how to truly listen to my body and emotions. I simply didn’t understand what my body needed or how it was trying to communicate with me. It took me years of failure and self-study to finally get there and now I understand why so many never do.
Something so precious and sacred is hidden behind complex language, an overload of information, and a system that overwhelms those who are already empty, overstimulated, exhausted, and barely holding on. For them, it feels too far out of reach.
Why I Do This Work
For the first time in my life, I felt truly free, free to create, to dream, and to build a life that was authentically mine. It was safe to just be me.
Where I once lived in survival mode, I began learning to live from a place of trust. I discovered the incredible power of my thoughts and beliefs and how I could use that power to shape my reality. The moment I realized my potential was limitless, everything changed. I didn’t just think differently; I felt different. I moved differently. My energy shifted. And with that shift, my entire life transformed. But this knowledge was too valuable to keep to myself. This freedom, these insights they weren’t meant to be mine alone. I felt a deep calling to share what I had learned, to show others they are not stuck, and that transformation is possible.
So I started sharing what I knew, first with people close to me, and then through a podcast that reached even more listeners. Suddenly, strangers began reaching out, sharing stories similar to mine and telling me how helpful my insights were. Honestly, it felt surreal. Me? Really helping others with knowledge that, to me, now felt so natural? That’s when the idea hit me: What if I gathered everything that truly worked, everything I know now and turned it into a course to share with even more people?
And I did exactly that. I decided to compile all I had learned over the years into a bootcamp, which I offered for free. Looking back, it was funny, made in PowerPoint, full of typos and rough around the edges but somehow, ten people signed up. For a whole week, every evening, I shared everything I knew, in simple, clear steps and straightforward language.
It was an intense week, and the results surpassed my wildest expectations. These women were amazed. Their lives changed.
And then I asked myself: What if I could help even more people?
That’s when my passion for sharing this knowledge truly took root.
My journey began in survival but it’s become so much more.
My journey started from a place of survival, but it evolved into something much deeper. The turning point was realizing this: real change doesn’t come from pushing harder, it comes from understanding and rewiring the subconscious patterns running the show.
Over the years, I’ve seen again and again that we don’t get stuck because we’re weak or unaware. We get stuck because 95% of our behavior is driven by unconscious patterns, stored in the body and shaped by past experiences. When you shift those patterns, everything else finally clicks into place. Doing my own inner work taught me something essential: I’m not here to save people, I’m here to teach them how to reclaim their power.
And that’s the work I’m committed to. I keep evolving, learning, and going deeper, because we can only guide others as far as we’re willing to go ourselves.
But this part isn’t about me,
it’s about you.
If you feel stuck in old patterns, disconnected from yourself, or held back by something you can’t quite name, I understand that place. And I also know what becomes possible when your inner system finally aligns with who you truly are.
You’re not broken.
You’re not behind.
You’re just ready for the next level of yourself and that’s the work we do here.
Love, Leyla
Disclaimer:I am a certified mindset coach, not a licensed psychologist, therapist, or medical professional. The content of this program is intended for personal growth and self-leadership. It is not a substitute for medical or psychological treatment. If you are currently under medical or psychological care, or if you experience severe mental health challenges, please consult a qualified healthcare professional before starting this program.